This pain I feel almost no one could help me i even lie who i am at school and I just hate how every one expects to much from me or worse they want me to be like my older sister,I just want this pain to end,sometimes i feel like crying but nothing falls out it's like I'm just waiting tell the day I die it just hurts. Why can't any one end this forever long lasting pain I have deep with in my souls,my family tells me to believe in the man from above but all he has given me is pain and hell he says he would save us from Lusafer but were is he when I need him most I've been waiting hopping and prying but i'm almost out of luck.I feel my life has no meaning so i smoke it all away to ease my pain that no one could help me with.